So...
I've made things clear to him and at least we know where we are heading to. As for me it was a definite goodbye and this shall be an easier way to concentrate to lose weight. right? ok, i'm lying.

Heh, who am i kidding? I'm sad ok. yeah. ok how to focus like this?

Whateva the situation he is in, its just unfair for me to understand the s*it hes going through. Then how about me? So i thought after eleven years, it rekindled (yes past tense) and now its going nowhere. I cant let this losing weight journey go nowhere too right?

I am this close to delete him from my f/b contact. this.close.

but why can't i.

coz i wanna know about his updates.

argh. super argh argh argh.

see! i cant even click the 'delete' button.. how to control my mouth from munching nonsence stuff that is not in the food list.

argh. argh. argh.

i think i need to sleep.

nights.